Revolted

I am disgusted by people like the Governor of West Virginia who increased HIS OWN SALARY by more than 50% while there are STATE WORKERS who are BELOW THE POVERTY LINE having to be on WELFARE, even with their jobs! And he refused to give teachers pay-raises, even though other political employees had similar pay-raises to his!

That is absolutely ridiculous! How can people who are in positions of power that are meant to HELP the people WHO ELECTED THEM to those positions be so selfish and self-absorbed? Did they just never care about the people they represent and serve, or did they become tainted by the jaded world of politics? Why can't people maintain the idealism of making this world a better place and actually put it into action when they have the opportunity?

This world makes me incredibly sad.

One Step at a Time

"I often feel trapped in people's ideas of who I am... stuck by it."

This was a statement made by someone whose blog I read, and I have to say that it struck me, as I too feel I have an issue with this.

I often tend to define myself by what and who others think I am. Even if what they think is negative, I tend to internalize it and believe it. It's a bad habit that I need to learn to overcome. I know that I'm not what others perceive me to be, as they don't know me as fully and deeply as they should before passing judgement, either positive or negative, on me.

The whole point of this is to say that I am my own person, not the product of other people. I cannot define myself, on who or what I am, based on those around me. I have to define myself based on my own beliefs and values and morals, and it's been a hard road for me to travel to realize this.

I have always taken to heart what others have said and thought about me, and let it affect me in negative ways and let it influence my actions in negative ways, and it's about time I start being my own person and move on from the past ways I allowed myself to be affected.

On this journey of mine, this is one more step in furthering myself and finding who I really am. And I couldn't be happier. :)

Growing "Up"

Tomorrow is my 21st birthday, and I feel strangely contemplative about it. 21 is considered by most to be the threshold into adulthood, the age that springboards us from adolescence to maturity, where we put away childish things and live as men and women. But in this day and age, that doesn't quite seem to be the case anymore. As people continue to live longer and longer, the date by which we're expected to "mature" seems to get pushed farther and farther back as well. There are people in their 30's, hell even their 40's or 50's, who party like they're teenagers or twenty-somethings. Are they not past the age to "mature" and give up such past-times, even after having birthed children and become parents? Or are we really ever expected to "mature"? As long as we fulfill our financial obligations, does that mean that we're free to forever more act like adolescents? Even know it seems the world is plagued by the "man-child" and the "woman-child",in reality, is that really such a bad thing? Isn't staying young at heart what keeps us from becoming bitter and cynical and helps us live longer, happier lives? But then again, isn't having drunken wild nights way past your prime incurring upon what time you have left as well? A catch-22, I believe.

Feng Shui It!

I am very interested in the idea of feng shui, and though I can't exactly move everything in my room/my house/my fiance's room around, I'm going to follow the lead of one of my online friends from California, and make myself a feng shui board! I'll have different boxes in the different colors that represent the different aspects of your life (I sure did say different a whole lot in this sentence, didn't I? ;) ), and then place pictures/images or writings or just inspirational things that represent what I want from each of those areas into those little boxes. I hope to get started on this new project ASAP, and I'll be sure to post pictures of my finished board so everyone can marvel at my craftiness. ;) Or just maybe get some inspiration of their own to embark on a new journey in their own lives. :)

Beyond the Pain

In the interest of making this blog more active, I decided to try to post a little about my life.

I am a fibromyalgia patient. It is a very difficult condition to deal with, considering it involves being constantly in pain and constantly exhausted. It sucks the energy and life out of me sometimes, but I keep on keepin' on, and push through as much as I can. There's no cure, but I accept that this is now a part of my life, and I have to handle it and adapt as best I can.

Most people don't understand what I'm going through, and the easiest way to describe it is like having a flu, 24/7. And some doctors don't even believe fibro exists, which makes it even more fun. But I've been lucky in that I've met some amazing people who share this condition, and they are incredibly supportive and understanding. I also have a good doctor who was recommended to me by many local doctors and fibro patients.

But the point of this post was to show that even though this proves to be a challenge for me, I'm not going to just lay down and give up. I won't let fibro control my life, and even though it does have a big impact on me, it will not make me any less of a person and I will continue to live my life as fully as possible. :)

Forgotten Password

It's been a while since I've written here. Only because I couldn't figure out how to login. Hehe. Oops. ;)

Henry is no longer the baby of our menagerie, as two mice found their way into my heart. Sophitia and Cassandra are my newest babies, having joined our little family just a few weeks ago. I rescued them from a pet store, where they had been dumped by some uncaring person. Poor darlings. :( They're sisters and quite cute. And super fast. ;)

My veggie-ism is now 3 months old, and I believe I'm doing quite well. I'm expanding my food options and trying new things and loving being a veggie-freak. :) I do have to admit, I do slip on occasion and eat meat, but it's mostly just chicken. :-p

Welp, that's all I've got for now. I'll hopefully update more often now. :)